Reclaim Your Voice
A personal-scientific journey through silence, insight & autistic brilliance
I couldn’t speak.
My words got silent on the loud outside world.
They were crystal clear in my mind – but they didn’t come out.
Something was choking me.
I tried again.
I followed what every expert says: “Take a deep breath.”
But I was already full. Full of saliva, pressure, tension.
Nobody had told me what I truly needed: to breathe out, to swallow – then speak.
But I could hear them. Crystal clear
They were in my mind. Fully formed. Precise. But something was blocking them on their way out.
It wasn’t fear. It wasn’t shyness.
It was a missing link between inside and outside.
A missing breath.
A missing rhythm.
Most people are told: “Take a deep breath – and speak.”
But for some of us, that is not only wrong. It’s dangerous.
You cannot swallow with a full mouth. And you cannot speak with a full breath.
I had to breathe out first.
Then swallow.
Only then… a sound could emerge.
That was the moment I knew: I need to understand this
Not just for me. But for my daughter. My mother. My grandfather.
Four generations. All autistic. All brilliant. All misunderstood.
None of the books explained what I saw and felt.
None of the books explained what I saw and felt.
No checklist, no diagnosis captured it.
So I began mapping.
I mapped patterns.
I mapped breath, voice, pressure, posture, light sensitivity, alpha rhythms, left-handedness, jaw tension, vagus nerve reactivity.
Everything that seemed “too much” or “too little” in us – I wanted to know where it came from.
And if there was a way to regulate it.Everything that seemed “too much” or “too little” in us – I wanted to know where it came from.And if there was a way to regulate it.
Everything that seemed “too much” or “too little” in us – I wanted to know where it came from.
And if there was a way to regulate it.
One of the key moments: our visit to Dr. Michael Watson.
Dr. Watson, chief psychiatrist at PDAG, examined my daughter.
I had shown him parts of my early theory already – he said:
“That’s highly interesting. A very promising approach.”
But it was just the beginning.
The game-changer: Alpha brainwaves.
I came across the work of Anna Wise, a Swiss-born consciousness researcher who studied the brainwave states of meditators, healers, and creatives.
Her insight:
The most balanced, intuitive, integrated minds operate in high-alpha coherenc
And I realized: That’s what I do. That’s what we do.
As autists, we naturally have access to unique processing patterns – if we learn to regulate them.
My method grew from there.
What I built is not therapy. It’s a system.
A system of self-regulation.
Of understanding your unique wiring – and working with it.
Breath, voice, touch, tapping, stillpoints, craniosacral rhythms, somatic focus, vagus techniques, meridian knowledge – all combined.
Built for neurodivergent minds.
By someone who knows what it feels like
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